Wednesday, July 31, 2013

0731

今天老师总算把两个星期前的作文分下来了。哇哇哇,又是一个最高分。
其实对自己的那篇没有多大信心。
上一次写的是  打开尘封的记忆 ,这一次是  第一次。都很荣幸地拿到那题的最高分,在老师报出我大名后在同学们啪啪啪的掌声中离开座位上前领了它再回到座位。
我不想别人说我串还是什么,不过还是真的没有什么很波涛汹涌的感觉。
记得上两次写的都很糟糕。
第二次的还是哭完了继续写写得很平淡的那种。
两次都摔得很痛。
继作文比赛过后难得慢慢走上坡,直到今天。
这何尝不像我这半年以来走过的点点滴滴。这是你完全想象不到的那种痛。
很多次,以为自己痊愈了。不过还没有。
现在回首,才发现那段时间真的很痛苦,自己能熬下去真的很不容易。
讲回我的作文。这两篇写的都是我破碎的友情。故事里除了我还有另一个主角,是她。结局不外她走了,我独自一人唤醒沉睡的记忆。
有很多人问我写得是不是真实的故事,我都否认了。其实认真想起来那故事的碎片好像已经融入我的思想一样。
那只是故事的影子,加上我幻想中的续集。
老师会不会在想,这个人的友情怎么那么悲哀。
其实没有,要的话,你可以谢谢班上的某个人。
他对我造成了前所未有的创伤。我走过了十六年来最痛最累最无助的一段日子。
于是,把他悄悄地渗入故事里那个她的灵魂里。其实,那个她的确存在。

我不懂这个是哪来的同情心。
转角那天过后,我一直逼自己不要在乎。既然人家已经把你丢得远远了你自己为什么还是不肯放下。
放下其实有那么容易吗。呵呵。
看到他被老师骂很无辜的样子,看到他打篮球扭到手臂很痛的样子,我会在乎。
现在想回去,还真的觉得很不值得。
我以为这个才叫爱。真的可以找人来打醒我才好。我真的很没脑很白痴很犯贱。讲严重一点,可以讲很没有尊严。
曾经承诺,要做个比他更好的人。
我应该是足足犯贱了。。。5个月。

最近变了很多。今天看到 cgpa 过后更不用讲。斗志全都涌上来了,目标好像在一时间变得很明确似的。
在这短短的三个月里我应该要为自己的未来埋下一个怎样的伏笔。
说好的dslr,说好的环游世界。等我。等有一天,我会去实现你。

我还是一个很傻的女生。只是在这中氛围里,我打算当一只披着狼皮的羊。你问我,为什么不写第二题。我只想说,这四年来,我没有一个可以让我回忆的班。

一个人坚强久了,也需要一个可以依靠的肩膀。

八月,继续努力,继续奋斗,继续加油。:)

Wfloo.

Friday, July 26, 2013

0726

哈咯 :D
上一篇其实是用手机的blogger apps打的  哈哈

然后又这样过了一个星期咯  今天星期五可是是公假  哈哈哈
假期最爽的就是可以睡到自然醒!虽然每次我很早就自然醒了 lol --
然后每次就是10点多11点又会睡过睡到下午  --

时间真的过得很快  很快就是八月了 :O
isc过了两个星期  我还是很想念他们 :( 超想回到过去  还是再找个时间聚一聚
不过那些  半夜玩killer  睡两个小时被冷醒  一起疯  一起笑  一起讲人  一起抢电话  的时光不会再倒流了吧?
即使再聚  也不会有这种时光了  haihhhhh

然后再一个月  就是trial 了  除了SPM  这就是另一个关乎我未来的重要考试  :O
到现在我还是没想好自己要读什么  未来要往哪条路走
有想过要放弃理科  不过又舍不得  我对解剖那些东西是蛮有兴趣的 -- 不过不懂啦 haihhh
我在文科确实是比较有天分啦  不过我不想做account --
在这种竞争的世界  都不懂要去跟别人争什么  haihhh 只有看拿到什么scholarship就去哪里咯
我父母又没有本事供我读那些私人的college什么的  haihhh
我又不想读form6 -- 如果没有办法我也会选择转校读  -.-

然后PLKN名单出了  哇老那个网站lag到像什么酱 --
我曾经跟我朋友讲我希望自己中  然后直接被讲到像什么酱 walao eh  不可以是吗你管我?!
中了我会去的啦 可不可以 roar --
我应该有90%会中啦我猜  没有中不懂该说自己幸运还是不幸运
我就是没有那些Kemahiran base 我知道去了会很辛苦  可是又怎样  没尝试过当然会说一大堆啦

然后就这样啦  不懂要讲什么了

Raya假期要到了爽咯
终于不需要每天早早醒来去外面等rapid过这种累人的生活了  :D

wfloo 

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

0724

Le me quote of the week: Never get too attached to something that isn't belong to you.

Currently I need a cure for pcs. An effective one larh like panadol active fast lol. Any recommendations? XD

Well it's 24 today. Three months more I will be officially seventeen. Still a young girl who never look like she is seventeen this year. Rawr

So any anticipation? Idk larh. Approximately 2 weeks after my birthday it's SPM. Invasion of my greatest enemy. Huh. But still I want a cake for my birthday. Probably ice cream cake from Br is the best. Hehe.

Well I really appreciate the existence of my bunch of brothers in ma life! ;D

And since coming back from isc I realized I had changed a lot. Maybe it's because I had widen my social circle and known a lot new and funny guys. That's why I didn't live in the old circle I used to live behind his shadow anymore. It's really a good thing I think I can let go of the painful memories he once gave me. Sorry dude. Imma happy with my life now. Yo. :D

Something I'm gonna show off is .... for a month I went to watch one movie each on every Saturday/ Sunday. So I've watched 4movies recently. MonsterU -- DespicableMe2 -- Rooftop -- Turbo. :D so damn yeah right? Cinema is one of the choices I would go dating with my boyf in the future haha :D

Life goes on. Ily. Mayday is still my forever love.

Wfloo xoxo.

Friday, July 19, 2013

Together. 4th CLISC xoxo

Hey there I've came back from the super awesome CLISC one week ago ;)
No regrets joining this camp! I've known a lot of great people from CLHS and from other countries LOL
Imma quite lazy to write such a long long post for this ... so.. let the photos talk ;)


Day1 :D
Registration at Stallions -- Team Briefing -- Group Photo Session -- Opening Ceremony -- Ice-breaking -- Welcoming Dinner
Well quite a great and special day for me :D I'm in group 9 not that 'lucky' larh actually my group leader isn't as handsome as I thought hahaha joking larh :D
That pretty girl beside me is Aileen hoho and I've received a nice bracelet from my new friend from China, Abbey :D She's indeed swag!
Opening Ceremony is super boring and I've met some CLHS guys which were sitting behind of me :D we kept chit-chatting throughout the ceremony and just realized they're very friendly! and a 'japanese' of course lol hahaha
Ice-breaking so-so lorh. INTERNATIONAL LEADER haha. our first game is to conquer a human-wall! OMG it was like everyone in the group will be forming a strong wall and the player who will be conquering it have to step on each other's feet and 'hug' the wall until you get to the last spot ... OMG and I was the first one to play it *shy* hahaha
Welcoming dinner was such a waste of food ;( Quite high but still not so if compared to the other day's dinner omg. sing and dance lol :D
First night went to 205 to practice for our performance yo :D


Day 2
ISC Forum -- School Tour, Co-curriculum Exhibition -- Cultural Games -- Night Game

Well waking up early in the morning with my eyes half open half close LOL (It has been a routine for me to sleep kinda late at night and wake super early in the morning every time when I'm away from home)
ISC Forum was a super boring thingy lol most of the participants in the hall were cherishing this precious time to take a short nap zz
Then School Tour, Co-curriculum Exhibition. Hmmmm still okay larh. Went to their scout room, astronomy corner, ChungLing Archive, watch the video lol (see above), and their alumni's working room lol -- still okay larh but I can see a huge difference between their school and our school. :O although both also CL :( and their KP really super yeng super geng arghhh salute!
Cultural Games! It was super super super FUN! Although some of the games quite boring larh. *hehe
We played Gasing (but I don't really play it haha because at that time there was an interesting 'fight' taking place in the same area we played gasing! so Weinee and I just sat down and watching them playing and laugh like a mad :D)
And then it was our turn to play that interesting 'fight' --- ball and cans fight? LOL idk its name --
Because of that game CL basketball court had turned into a battlefield! OMG everyone was getting mad and insane because of that ball and cans -- being hit by the ball was indeed hurt and pain -- siao siao
then we played sepak takraw :D haha it was fun too but I was such a nerd in sports I failed to catch the ball accurately almost every time the ball was thrown to my side --
then congkak, played with Aileen okay she won I lost :P but it was not important larh haha
after tea break we continued our game. It was batu seremban's turn. Epic fail larh haha :D
The great and fun one --- Carrom! It was super hyper FUN to the max! I turned out to be the winner OMG hehe keep laughing and shouting until stomachache throughout the game :D together with me were Weinee, Zhanquan and Hongyang. Got to know them more especially Zq and Hy after the game. teeheee
The last game was bakuli. haha I was still a fail in this game :(

After dinner it was time to start our Night Game! Zombies Apocalypse
It sounded horrible at the beginning and we kept running and yelling when zombies approached us LOL
although that time the sky haven't turn all dark -- commotions around CL school compound lol
but still at last the zombies also like no energy already and it became not so scary anymore.. quite regret not taking photos with the zombiessss..well one is enough ;D
Quite a tiring day... night still 205 larh ;D



Day3
Team Building -- Shopping -- Cultural Night Dinner Show

Morning went Rainbow Paradise Hotel to build sandcastle :D it was my very first time to build a real sandcastle! Woooo but still G9's was such an epic fail :( at the end the waves were going to engulf our sandcastle so everyone worked hard to defend it against the waves lol
After that went shopping at Gurney lol in fact Gurney is a place that holds many of my memories ...
Cultural Night Dinner Show after that! That photo is me wearing kebaya lol quite regret because didn't have enough time to take pictures.. it was my only photo I took in the kebaya...what I did was smile and gesturing a peace sign when the photographer walked past me lol.. a good chance I've grabbed :D
After that it was our show time! Jiawei and Liying's Just Give Me a Reason before our Gentleman rocked the stage haha :D everyone got so high during our Gentleman! LOL I think I still managed to dance ba hahaha because I just learnt the steps after going to Stallions --
After our performance (ours was the last) then they played campsong and those high songs and everyone was like dancing enjoying themselves in a disco jumping screaming around OMG but still it was fun!

That night went 205 and played truth or dare :O but that time I was tired so I didn't enjoy much ...


Day 4
Penang Heritage Exploration -- Presentation on Penang Heritage Exploration -- Campfire

Well on this particular day we went to explore Penang Heritage :D
Although I'm a 100% pure Penangite, I never went to these places before lol --
but I didn't take much pictures hmmmm keep chit-chatting and talking nonsense with Nancy Johnathan Zee throughout the journey...quite fun larh but we didn't concentrate on what was the tour guide explaining to us lol
Later on when we went back to school we started preparing for our presentation, I was incharge in the Powerpoint part :) that time the line was super lag and we were rushing for time to prepare the slide -- so I just copy and paste that particular details regarding the building that we were going to explain without reading it further -- when present in front I was looking at the slide with a lot of information inside thinking "what the heck I just done?!" and kept lagging in front of everyone :( even my dear group leader couldn't help me I was such a fail :( super nervous because I didn't prepare to talk before that :( but still it was a different experience lol *self-comforting --

And at night we had BBQ and campfire! enjoying ourselves this time the basketball court had turned into a disco or pub lol -- HEHE

It was the last night ;( went 508 this time to enjoy domino, play TruthOrDare, Killer until 3am++ in the morning lol. we slept in the super cold freezing 508 for 2 hours++. everyone was awaken by the super cold environment. fyi, we lost the airconditioner remote when we were playing TruthOrDare --



Day5

Penang Bird Park -- CLB -- Home Sweet Home

Well Day 5 -- consequence of having seriously-not-enough sleep last night, I turned out to be a super panda TT
Went to the canteen like a zombie -- haihhhh everyone was the same lol

And then checked out and back to Butterworth -- Penang bird park lol
I think I went here when I was young ago-- totally I've no idea
Photo above I just simply choose because there was me in the photo lol I still took photo with a bird standing on my arm but that person still haven't upload the photo why! haihhhhh

and then back to CLB. My lovely school finally haih hahaha

and then back home already. WHY! I wanna homestay at Penang also cannot :(
Went back to home emo-ly --

Day6

Hellyeah the camp still haven't end but I have to back to school study normally lol
Nancy boh jio me go seminar room so I emo the whole day in the class! can't get the chance go out to meet the foreigners at all --



Day 7

Farewell & Sharing party

For us it was like a non-stop autographing and photographing session!
Haha keep taking photo with them and signing here and there :D
No cry at all because I enjoyed taking photo with my friends hahaha :D as you know I'm such an insane if any DSLRs is around :D

Hugss *.*

And then went Queensbay with bunch of CLHS guys. It was indeed a great evening with them :D


So, CLISC ended. Post-camp syndrome still continues.

From the bottom of my heart, I appreciate everything and I am happy satisfied contented to join this CAMP! no regrets :D xoxo
I am really grateful that I have finally got the chance to join this since I missed it last year. 4th CLISC is still awesome! HEYHOHEYHO :D



After ISC finally it's the time for me to study hard hard hard. SPM is still my goal. teeheeee. See ya!

wfloo :D

Saturday, July 6, 2013

0706

今天是一年一度的家长日+食堂日lol  哈哈哈
第一次和弟弟一起 ... 也是最后一次啦 :D

哇老真的很高兴老师一直称赞我  哈哈哈 从头到脚 
他说不要松懈下来  会更好  拼也拼多几个月罢了 哈哈哈
今年没有中demerit lol 不懂几开心哈哈哈哈
好吧老师  不会让你失望的 :D  然后老师还跟我妈妈讲回去年我ponteng出去鬼鬼祟祟的样子 --
他说我太直了  做人不要那么直  我真的有酱直meh  你不会觉得我心机重自私自利咩 哈哈哈开玩笑啦  怪不得我整天被欺负被骗被玩  haihhhhhhhhh 
然后我妈妈还跟老师说我没有心读书  整天按电话 :(  老师讲这个是现在的趋势我妈妈直接tnehtiao哈哈哈
然后今年食堂日是吃得最多的一次 :D 哈哈哈也是最后一次了啦 :)

然后明天就是ISC啦 omgomgomg  现在心情还好吧 不会很兴奋 :O
最重要是享受过程!交多一点新朋友  拍多一点照  要这样的话就要很bps!哈哈哈
要不要带书去读叻  -- 行李背包没有位装了 :O 可是回来过后几天就是k3m了我还在这里游手好闲 TT

好吧好吧 先放自己多一个星期的假  回来过后真的没理由堕落了我要拼我要拼我一定要!
我不在的这几天希望大家不要太想我  哈哈哈  
然后这次去的比去云顶还多一天叻  可是好像去云顶比较紧张酱 
最pekcek的是每次出去行李都是塞到满满不过真正那些衣服都没有穿到完的 -- 带多一点去比较有安全感对不对 
然后那个culturalnight的表演真的是很zek ak -- 我没有练到 -- 本来昨天晚上要去studio的哪里知道改去今天下午然后那个dancer今天就放我们飞机有没有搞错 TT 

好吧希望我不要少带东西  ENJOY!  :D

然后恭喜五月天干杯获得金曲奖最佳MV!我爱你们你们永远是我的动力  干杯 :D
wfloo :D

Thursday, July 4, 2013

0704

嗨  7月快乐

做am project 做到要呕了  
根本就没有用excel word做过这种东西 --
用写真的是又快又方便 haihhh 第一次用电脑也用到这样 zek ak --

今天他们去studio练舞  我没得去 haihhhhh 没有人载 TT
不懂怎样啊  算了  明天再看吧
为了那个表演  浪费了一个星期的下午  总算有着落了 TT
还有3天就要去isc料  麻烦一大堆出来 haih 为什么什么都是lastminute才通知的haih
传统服装还没拿到手 :( 星期二就去借了今天昨天找不到老师所以拿不到 emooo TT

Haih 最近真的很烦  然后一直下雨  天气阴沉沉 
昨天发生了一件不太愉快的事情  Hmmmm其实还好啦 我没有很在意
朋友  你觉得你们这样做对吗
尤其是 *** 你真的很没有礼貌根本就没有尊重我好吗
刘总至少要借也会过来问我一声  而不是在你们传来传去看的时候也拿去看
更甚的是  你从刘总手上拿走我的作文  然后他转过来跟我无奈地说你们的时候  你竟然没有回应一句
根本就没有把我放在眼里好吗  没有经过我的同意也好  在那边假假看嘛好咯  我也会配合你假装看不到 ^^
问题是  没经过我的同意  还看得理所当然什么都不理  你至少反过来跟我笑一下我不至于变得那么生气
你真的很过分了懂吗  不懂怎样形容你  你没资格让我形容  态度真的很重要  我真的越来越不爽你了
不过嗯  宽容  ^^ 宽容 ^^ 其实我不觉得作文给他们看是我的福气  Haih要写在周记里面跟老师诉苦了 
有人至少看到那个推了还会对号入座向我道歉  不过你呢  你会不会  根本不在乎对吧

然后同样一个人  今天问我去不去的时候态度真的是 .........
可是第二次问我的时候  我直接很冷的回应他  竟然还会觉得内疚 -- 我真的不习惯那样对待人  我真的太心软了 haihhhhh 结果整天给人家欺负给人家骗咯 --

今天心情很糟糕 .... 其实昨晚也是  做am project做到很pekcek wechat一直响 然后朋友又一直因为isc的东西打来给我弄到我很烦 --
今天  连他来问我东西  我也很敷衍的回应  连看都不看一眼好吗  haihhhhh
其实我会那样容易决定说不去  是有原因的  你就是那个原因 --
然后今天看到你这样心里真的不是滋味 ...... 叫自己不要犯贱了但还是 ........ 是比朋友更深一层的关心  我想去安慰你  好像之前那样  不过我凭什么 我是谁  我什么都不是  
这种关系  一个不小心  会越变越糟  现在好不容易比以前好一点点了  我不敢再轻易触碰它 害怕它又再变回以前的样子 
还能怎样  心情就是那么容易会被影响  想给你支持  或者一个微笑  不过我没有勇气

想回来  一切还是个不能弥补的过错 
时间会送给我们什么  我不知道 

有时候  真的想赶快毕业  
不过还有四个月罢了啦  Haih 
spm倒数125天  isc回来后准备k3m  然后就可以pia trial了 haihhhhh

这次的考试真的很tneh -- 刘总啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
不过名次真的不重要啦  :D

加油加油  能的话去isc之前会再写  掰

wfloo