blaming

Seriously, i hate myself so damn much..
i am trying hard to love myself, but failed..
now just keep emo-ing...
for no reason.. lol

stupid larh~
i hate those people beside me...
i hate facebook..
i hate the video..
i hate whatever~ everything!!
all for me just nonsense.. =,=

i just cant stay happy even for 1 second..
now so depressed.. and frustrated..
i couldn't get myself free from those irritating matter..
what the heck man..

stupid..
i hate everything..
EVERYTHING....

tomorrow..
can i be happy?
hope so..
i wish to bang this computer and commit suicide..
but still.. i wont do it..
i love myself [isn't it contradicting?] and my computer..
=.=

i force myself to be happy..
i pretend to be strong..
grrr....
i hate this feeling...
y i just cant think positively....

and..
the truth is,
I HAD BEEN NEGLECTED SO BADLY..
nobody will care about me..
no matter what happens....
i'm born to be invisible..
from the beginning to the end..
truth hurts.. isn't it?

if..
one day i'll leave everyone...
sure no one will care about it, right??
for them..
i am appear just to block their beautiful view..

i'm still emo-ing..
i want to hear my music..
so that it could comfort myself.. ==

who is meant to be ...
FRIENDS?
no one..
no one would like to be friends with me sincerely..
i'm unnecessary..forever..

FRIENDS.
all sucks..

i am so lonely...
or i'm born to be, right??
the answer is YES.

suddenly..
i miss them so damn much.. ><


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i'm not belong to this world..
i'm belong to the sun, moon, mars or whatever..
earth kick me out..
what the hell